Have I told you that I love Wednesdays? Can you believe that I'm so looking forward for RCIA every Wednesdays that I practically ran on my high thin heels, in order not to be late?! I am even so willing to take cab. just for distance of 3 busstops! Simply cannot explain the joy, so much of 'looking forward'.. I just love to go RCIA! It's a total different me, when I attended previous RCIA and this-total transformation!! It's really a joy when you know you are planted at the right place - just like tree planted by the river.
Maybe you'll say it's the friends and fellowship which made me so excited and enthusiastic. I admit I enjoy their company, support and loving-kindness..but what I'm really looking forward is the 'Feeding' of my spiritual hunger - The Word of God. I cannot explain how this course is 'tailored' for me.. but I simply enjoying the weekly 'feeding' of the Word. Explaination of every catholic practices, tracing back to the context of ancient times, and understanding the time period of the Bible etc.. It's like having a feast, which is so satisfying, no matter how tired you are.. Understand??
Cannot believe that I'm going through Rite of Acceptance this Sunday..Though it's just acceptance, but i'm really amazed how I came this far and still looking forward to be part of the faith... Still remember my panic during the opening night.. the anxiety, fear and depression, and just want to be in a corner to get things over and done with.. It's so different now! Every step i have taken in this journey required all my physical and mental energy.. looking back, I know I will not regret it, and I will keep pressing forward..
... ... If only I followed the prompting of my heart last year, with B joining as my sponsor.. I still miss him.. no doubt, I still love him now.. I don't know if he misses me or even has any feeling for me now, but I'm not afraid of telling you YES, I STILL LOVE B! As long as he is happy, I'll be happy and always pray for him.. Love actually does not need close physical distance.. if u understand what I mean.
"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." - Matt 6:33
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