I cant sleep last night.. kept thinking about the emails I have to resolve today + my India trip on this Sun...I've not gotten my visa, not knowing who to contact, not packed my stuff..yet I know I've to work extreme long hours today, before I start my weekend..and my weekends: I have to pack my meeting materials, my luggage, exchange money and get some gifts.. A lot to do on top of my routine tuitions.. (First time since my depression, I experience such 'fulfillment' of time.. simply too many things to do..) (I better to careful what I pray for in future - God not only answers, He answers prayers with ABUNDANCE)
And today is my specialist follow-up for my eye infection..I simply cant make it at my appointed time - 4.30pm (I need to clear my works!!) Hence I decided this morning to take a risk of walking into the clinic.. I don't know if any of you knows - eye specialist in hospital only attends to appointments.. If you are early or late, you simply just have to stick to your appointed time. The specialists' schedule are really PACKED! (trust me - I tried calling to change my appointment, and the next earliest date is in AUGUST08! What good business for them!!)
Ok, back to my 'risk-taking' at the clinic..Expected, I got 'nagging' from the nurse who told me this morning schedule is already full with 200 patients..Only if the doctor is free, then they'll see me which means I just have to 'wait n see' for the whole morning session.. So, being understanding and 'patient' I proposed for them to call me back, while I return to work during my wait.. I was planning in my mind how to squeeze some time out from my work, when I was walking out of clinic..
Felt hunger so i took a detour to the canteen for some quick breakfast..Just then, my long-silenced mobile vibrated..I thought something happened in office..To my surprise, it's from the clinic! The doctor says he's just started the day, so is able to squeeze me in NOW..Can you imagine how fast I RAN back to the clinic, saying 'God is Good all the time' so loudly along the way! ... Miracles do happen :)
Another miracle I realised -- throughout my stress emotions and mental now, I'm still smiling, teasing and joking with EVERYONE I meet! My colleagues who keep bugging me on their urgent requests, my sisters who were tempting me with my Wii, the nurse who was so stern on me, the auntie at the canteen, and the doctor.. If only they know I'm so stressed and eager to clear my work, they'll think I'm having a SPLIT personality..freaking out...Its really weird for me, ok? to have both anxiety+stress+happiness+enjoyment together at the same time, in the same body.. I am really having a totally split - outside and inside..
Ok..I got to go work now.. Keep praying for me - sound mind, wisdom, guidance, protection and joy. :) I love you all!
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