I just want to tell you guys that I'm very blessed by RCIA. Not because of the support and friends I've made in such short time. (Can't imagine today is only my 3rd lesson) But because the way of this journey is structured that blessed me so much. I know this is the 'Bible Study' I am seeking all these years.
Some of you might have known. The beginners' journey for Christ is usually on Salvation, how Christ came to die for sinners on earth etc... Trust me, I believe in Christ and his life, death and resurrection. But I've always hope to seek deeper Truth. By the way, in case you do not know me, I'm a 'Word' person. I enjoy the Bible, not because of the wonderful Good News..but because they are all TRUE. God is alive!
I usually ask questions on different issues, different views and even doctrines of the Bible. Very often, I kinda 'challenge' people on their faith, when all I hope is to learn more about Christian faith.
I cannot express how much I enjoy this RCIA, how much I look forward for every Wednesdays. And I'm now blessed with a new Bible, this will mark a new start of my journey (especially my dog ate parts of my current NIV Bible). If you read this, and feel something in your heart, I welcome you to join this journey. Really. It's not just for the non-believers, but also for those who desire more of God's Word in our lives. We will learn and walk the talk together!
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Sunday, February 24, 2008
24 Feb 08 - Well of Living Waters
I know it's freaky.. I feel so too.. But it's just God's marvelous work!
The fact is.. I had been feeling 'dry' in my spirit (if u know what I mean)..I know God has been and is guiding, watching my every step, esp in my cross-over; I know I have to face a lot of differences in the manner of praise and worship and get myself adjusted; I know it is the same omnipresent God who created me and is with me throughout my Christian faith and esp what happened recently, He is the Great I Am.. But I just cannot help feeling 'dry', feeling 'alone'..my words of prayer weigh so heavy..
I know i have to do something-i cannot slacken in my spirit. I pray for God to quench of this thirst.. Trust me, I really don't feel like praying but I just said it anyway..Felt a 'tug' that maybe I should return to my previous church, at least just for this weekend..I ended up doing my retail therapy yesterday and forgotten about this tug.
This morning, the moment i wake up, I woke up in 'panic'.. in a such panic that I'll miss the live internet broadcast of my previous church (yes, we have live internet broadcast for all to join our service)..I thought at least I can just enjoy the praise and worship which I'm so familiar with (I know the importance to give thanksgiving to our Lord, even though it's really hard..)
The new worship song hit me - "Holy Spirit fall on us, rekindle us with Your Fire and Power, come and quench our thirst".. I considered it as 'coincidence', but I really did hope to pull down Heaven to myself in my room..After the Praise and Worship, my laptop suddenly became mute!! Serious! No reason, I tried reconnecting and all ways to get the audio back.. then I glanced at the clock, oh.. it's time to go for my mass.....(I must be singing so loud, cos my family knew I'm praying after I came out from my room)..
I have this 'surprise' when I stepped into mass hall! The Word today is 'come and drink from me, living waters of life".. Trust me, I really don't know this sharing thingy beforehand.. I just cant help thanking God for hearing my prayer, though it's really heavy words from my mouth.. I really enjoyed the mass today though the gospel sharing is longer than usual, but I simply enjoy every word of it!
John 4:4-42 is on how Jesus came to the well, met the Samaritan woman, how she interpreted His living water as her daily water routine..As Jesus begain to explain more, she become more open to His Wisdom and soon the whole town came and experience God for themselves.
I don't know how you think but this passage just blesses my spirit so much so much..I want to drink from this well of Living Waters now, and pray God will reveal His Will to me, explain to me why things happened..I know God is guiding me,speaking to me, though I don't understand Him now..
I pray for His revival in my spirit, and for His church His Body.. I will learn to be patient and wait for the Lord just as the Samaritians wait for the Messiah to come and explain to them..I know it's not easy, it's just words... but God is with me. Praise to God in the Highest!
"If God is your co-pilot, change seat with Him"
The fact is.. I had been feeling 'dry' in my spirit (if u know what I mean)..I know God has been and is guiding, watching my every step, esp in my cross-over; I know I have to face a lot of differences in the manner of praise and worship and get myself adjusted; I know it is the same omnipresent God who created me and is with me throughout my Christian faith and esp what happened recently, He is the Great I Am.. But I just cannot help feeling 'dry', feeling 'alone'..my words of prayer weigh so heavy..
I know i have to do something-i cannot slacken in my spirit. I pray for God to quench of this thirst.. Trust me, I really don't feel like praying but I just said it anyway..Felt a 'tug' that maybe I should return to my previous church, at least just for this weekend..I ended up doing my retail therapy yesterday and forgotten about this tug.
This morning, the moment i wake up, I woke up in 'panic'.. in a such panic that I'll miss the live internet broadcast of my previous church (yes, we have live internet broadcast for all to join our service)..I thought at least I can just enjoy the praise and worship which I'm so familiar with (I know the importance to give thanksgiving to our Lord, even though it's really hard..)
The new worship song hit me - "Holy Spirit fall on us, rekindle us with Your Fire and Power, come and quench our thirst".. I considered it as 'coincidence', but I really did hope to pull down Heaven to myself in my room..After the Praise and Worship, my laptop suddenly became mute!! Serious! No reason, I tried reconnecting and all ways to get the audio back.. then I glanced at the clock, oh.. it's time to go for my mass.....(I must be singing so loud, cos my family knew I'm praying after I came out from my room)..
I have this 'surprise' when I stepped into mass hall! The Word today is 'come and drink from me, living waters of life".. Trust me, I really don't know this sharing thingy beforehand.. I just cant help thanking God for hearing my prayer, though it's really heavy words from my mouth.. I really enjoyed the mass today though the gospel sharing is longer than usual, but I simply enjoy every word of it!
John 4:4-42 is on how Jesus came to the well, met the Samaritan woman, how she interpreted His living water as her daily water routine..As Jesus begain to explain more, she become more open to His Wisdom and soon the whole town came and experience God for themselves.
I don't know how you think but this passage just blesses my spirit so much so much..I want to drink from this well of Living Waters now, and pray God will reveal His Will to me, explain to me why things happened..I know God is guiding me,speaking to me, though I don't understand Him now..
I pray for His revival in my spirit, and for His church His Body.. I will learn to be patient and wait for the Lord just as the Samaritians wait for the Messiah to come and explain to them..I know it's not easy, it's just words... but God is with me. Praise to God in the Highest!
"If God is your co-pilot, change seat with Him"
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
20 Feb 08 - God's Timing
Don't ask me why I suddenly back to blog again.. I really don't know.. Just feel "hey I should blog it" so I just back here again..
Today is the 2nd lesson in my RCIA faith journey. I cant help comparing this journey with the previous I had tried..It just so different..Not because of the different approach of Father's sharing, but because how the Word of God come to me. Previously, I was really not ready to go through the journey maybe because I'm not doing for God, but for man. But now, even though it's just the 2nd lesson, the Word has been speaking so direct to my heart as if this course is designed specially for me. Every sharing of verse is what I've been holding onto for past months. When I think of this, I cant help smiling at the wonder of God's timing...
I can even make friends easily in my RCIA class, even though I really just want to be alone. When God is at work and He wants to bless, no one can stop Him..really..Even a forced "hi" is the opening to receive God's blessings.
Looking back, God has shown me so many miracles and signs, even till a point I cried to my counsellor that I was going insane. Yet, I know I have to put my faith in God because He is so evidently at work in me. He knows I'm trying to be 'sane' and face the reality. He keeps sending me friends - friends I never expect to contact again..really.. Friends less than acquantance, yet God calls them back into my life to share their lives with me.
Of course, everyone share the same or similiar story. But the bottomline is God is real and faithful. Heaven and earth will pass away, but His Word will never pass away. He promised to be with us always, and He is always with us even when we are faithless. God has blessed and can take it away if He thinks it's not the right timing yet or it's not the best for us. Indeed, He will only give us the BEST because He loves us so much.
Trust me, it's easy to listen but it's challenge to act on it. But constant prayer and fasting do help. Not that I'm going freaky after being weak from fasting, but believe me there's power when you pray and fast. Fast, not on diet. Fast is a delibrate sacrifice of self-denial unto God, giving up what you like or usually do for God, seeking His intercession. A desire to meet God in a tangible way, not just in knowledge.
I pray for all who is reading my experience..It's really not a hoax. The pain was so real and the cries were so loud..I am really on depression medication. Yet, this is the time God reveals Himself to me so real that I nearly thought I'm insane. God will make a way when it seems to be no way. His Ways are higher than our ways, and His Plans are greater than our plans. God is Holy and God of All. Praise to God in the Highest!
Today is the 2nd lesson in my RCIA faith journey. I cant help comparing this journey with the previous I had tried..It just so different..Not because of the different approach of Father's sharing, but because how the Word of God come to me. Previously, I was really not ready to go through the journey maybe because I'm not doing for God, but for man. But now, even though it's just the 2nd lesson, the Word has been speaking so direct to my heart as if this course is designed specially for me. Every sharing of verse is what I've been holding onto for past months. When I think of this, I cant help smiling at the wonder of God's timing...
I can even make friends easily in my RCIA class, even though I really just want to be alone. When God is at work and He wants to bless, no one can stop Him..really..Even a forced "hi" is the opening to receive God's blessings.
Looking back, God has shown me so many miracles and signs, even till a point I cried to my counsellor that I was going insane. Yet, I know I have to put my faith in God because He is so evidently at work in me. He knows I'm trying to be 'sane' and face the reality. He keeps sending me friends - friends I never expect to contact again..really.. Friends less than acquantance, yet God calls them back into my life to share their lives with me.
Of course, everyone share the same or similiar story. But the bottomline is God is real and faithful. Heaven and earth will pass away, but His Word will never pass away. He promised to be with us always, and He is always with us even when we are faithless. God has blessed and can take it away if He thinks it's not the right timing yet or it's not the best for us. Indeed, He will only give us the BEST because He loves us so much.
Trust me, it's easy to listen but it's challenge to act on it. But constant prayer and fasting do help. Not that I'm going freaky after being weak from fasting, but believe me there's power when you pray and fast. Fast, not on diet. Fast is a delibrate sacrifice of self-denial unto God, giving up what you like or usually do for God, seeking His intercession. A desire to meet God in a tangible way, not just in knowledge.
I pray for all who is reading my experience..It's really not a hoax. The pain was so real and the cries were so loud..I am really on depression medication. Yet, this is the time God reveals Himself to me so real that I nearly thought I'm insane. God will make a way when it seems to be no way. His Ways are higher than our ways, and His Plans are greater than our plans. God is Holy and God of All. Praise to God in the Highest!
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