31 May 08 - Have I changed??

My tuitions are cancelled today, leaving me with whole day free..(in fact, when they all suddenly cancelled is also a blessing to me cos I really need a personal break; my do-to list is so long yet I do not have time.) I spent the whole day, really the WHOLE day, rearranging my room (my bi-annual habit). I reached home last night at 3am, after AMP, and woke up at 7am. Started working on my new shoe cabinets even before breakfast, then moving unto giving my room a total new look. (I really enjoy moving my furnitures around, giving my room a 'new concept', without any giving any pre-plan..totally impulse and inspirational. Most do spring cleaning once a year, but I do it bi-annually)..'Inspiration' just flow when I started pushing and moving my books-cabinet around. Then my 2 wardrobes, my bedside table, little Altar, bed and even brought the old shoe cabinet into my room...and I did all the pushing, rearranging, packing and cleaning all by myself!!! When a mysophobia person cleans, I can assure you that we really CLEAN! I even swept and mopped the floor every time I moved one furniture. Just want to be sure everywhere is clean, before I move it into its new place..How my back aches now!! 7am to 10pm of bending, pushing and lifting heavy things, no rest+hardly any water too.. Well done, J.

I cant help thinking of B...previous times(8 times in 4 yrs) he was around to help me, even repainting my whole room(though he always ended up being nagged by me for moving to the wrong position, or sleeping on job.) B is not a person who like the idea of rearranging furnitures so often in a year, unlike me and his mother. But his presence is enough to be my motivation, even though he's 'taking a rest' while I continued the work. Cant blame him, cos I just dun like to leave things unsettled despite how tired I am..that's why I continued the rearrangement work without him..

OK, back to my room...It's a strange feeling as I worked on the room concept today. In the past, I've always wanted to create 'my corner' in my room. The idea is more of 'as long as my partner n me r happy in this room'...But this time, the inspiration keeps suggesting such creative ideas towards 'open-room' concept.

For some background information, my family IS very hospitable - my dad even provided 2 Jap 'homestay' in our house, when he was a cab-driver. NO charge! Just 1 night of experiencing local lifestyle.. That is how weird and friendly my family is, though we usually appear really cold and even 'unloving'.. My mum n sisters also like to invite their friends n colleagues for cook-together, chat or sleep-over etc..Except me. I enjoy my friends' company but sharing the night with them is another issue altogether. Night is my personal time, time with my partner etc..

But as I was saying, this time the arrangement is so different! I cant wait to 'showcase' my room to my friends and anyone who visit our house. I used to dread the idea of inviting friends over, just imagine the amount of cleaning after they leave!! (I'm clean freak, remember?) But I'm so proud of my room now! I cant wait to invite all my friends to stay with me! I even put up one of those 'cosy' stuff which I'd never think of having in my room! (My ideal design is only glass+metal+mirrors, I need as much space+light as possible. Wood/Cottage stuff is definitely No-No!)..the impulse n wanting friends to come over is so joyful, esp now I can entertain them with Wii.. They can come n play and chat while I cook for them (there'll be some good guests who'll help in dish washing, right?) I've bought so many new cookery books, only to short of 'food-tasters'

Nowadays, my RCIA mates come over for guitar lessons on Sundays. Though I'm a poor host, but I must say the fellowship is really different(in public vs home setting). When your friends are able to make themselves so at home in your home, the feeling and quality of sharing is really so much higher! (Tip: Ensure ample non-fizzy drinks and ice-cream in fridge + snacks!) I'm so looking forward to invite AMP dears, even opening up my room for our fortnightly cellgroup meeting! I've always wanted to dedicate a room for God's usage, be it personal prayer or church group meeting. That room will be so filled with God's tangible Presence! It's like having the 'Inner court of the God's temple' right inside your room; having God as your co-housemate! Wow!! How thrilling!!

Have I changed and why? For better or for worse? Is it just a fast sprouting seed with no firm roots?...But seriously, people who know me personally, YOU ARE FREE TO COME/USE/STAY OVER MY ROOM ANYTIME! Just give me a call!

Anyway, can someone please pray for my aching back+shoulder? I better go to rest now, lest I cant attend Mass tmr.