the moment i woke up, i remembered the sprained ankle - i need to work today..for a moment,i was happy that the ankle pain was gone.But the moment i stepped down from my bed,the pain returns as my weight (not much though-only 41kg) seem to be too heavy for my poor ankle..totally hurtful..
my hugo saw me getting up and back to bed, knowing i'm not rushing off to work this morning.. he jumped unto my bed and snuggled besides me, into to my bosom..like a baby he sleeps while i pat him..it's his way of telling me he's always here for me..perhaps he know i'm in pain cos that's what he did when i was in bad shape..he cant talk but like a son sticks to his mother,he tells me how much i am to him with these little acts for comfort and affection..although we know his first passion is human food, but i suppose i'm next to it.. he is really a smart dog with high situation awareness..can be a real opportunist too..
then my dad came into my room..instead of being sympathetic for my pain,he justified himeself by saying 'See,luckily i never go movie with you all,spend money and get hurt'...honestly, my first reaction to mind was 'hello,no one wants this lor..u didn't want to watch w us cos u've always chose to be hermit - stay in ur room and sleep, eat,sleep." Somehow, i didn't react in my words, i just let him carry on to justify himself for making the right choice and let him smirking away..
This teaching comes to my mind- Righteousness,Peace and Joy. All that we are doing in our lives, everthing that we do now are really seeking for these 3 things all our lives. It's from this inner calling, inner desire to seek for these RPJ, that we make our daily decisions, devise our daily activities and lifestyle. How many times I've the urge to argue back - just to ensure i'm right; how many times i've told people 'See, i told you so'-just to prove i'm right. Being strong-headed and independent, how hard i've tried to be right in order to be righteous so i can fill this Righteousness void in my heart...
Yet, no matter how right we make ourselves, we wont be able to fill this R void in our hearts. How can we find this R to fit perfectly into our R gap? It's like finding the last piece of jigsaw puzzle, but we cant seem to find the right piece which can fit perfectly. We decide to make do with what we find - our morals,perceptions, experiences n the great enlightenment of Science...anything that we can justify ourselves and make us feel right.
Can u imagine how detailed and what delicated fingers God has? He made us in His image, and even crafted this delicately-shaped voids in our hearts which only He can fit. How delicate is His works! We can try to complete our lives with so many things yet nothing, absolutely nothing can fit into the voids except His RPJ..
Maybe you may think-God is selfish or egoist. He created us and yet making us seek for Him, His RPJ..what about the 'free-will' that He has given us? It sounds more like a sabotage plot..
My dear, are you able to create another life in your image? Is the creation greater than the Creator, because of this free-will He has given to His creation? He created us in His perfection which He could have total control over us, but He chose to give us the will which He will never touch. Just imagine this - Michelangelo who painted "The Creation of Adam" gave u his painting brush which he had just used to finish this marvelous painting..what would u do? Holding this brush in hand, do you claim this great painting to be your work? Or, exclaim to the world Michelangelo painted it in great inspiration with this brush that you hold? Who do you choose to give this glory - yourself or Michelangelo?
That is how great God love us! God created us, yet gave us will. We can take this will to give glory to ourselves n justify our own righteousness, or take this will to give glory to God who is Righteous. Too profound? Take some time to think about it, ok?
I pray one day everyone on earth will turn to God to fill these voids..to complete us.
...btw my dad just came back into my room.. His attitude is totally different from the self-satisfactory smirk earlier on..He asked about my ankle again in totally different tone. What can i say..miracles do happen, but do you recognise these miracles in your life? Regard them as 'coincidents' or 'some sense finally gets into his thick head' or give thanks to God who is always working to make impossible possible??
The brush is on your hands, I leave it to your decision.
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