23 Apr 08 - My 1st closing prayer in RCIA

Dear all!
I cannot wait till tmr to tell you how happy I am! U know I've been asked to do the closing prayer for tonight's class.. Though I had 'experience' in saying public prayer, but this is really totally a CHALLENGE, both to my mental and faith.

I was 70% confident I could do it with God's Guidance, when I said 'yes' to my goddaddy's request. Then he posed me a qn which stumbled me "Have you written it down or are you saying then?".. I was like 'Ya, why didn't I think of writing it down, so I can have better control'.. Then I heard myself telling him, "I'll do it there, don't worry". ... How can I say that when I AM worried I might say the wrong words or stammering.. I was really amazed at my answer!

When class is closing, I kept praying in my heart "Holy Spirit, please give me the words to say, please" ... managed to keep myself from being nervous..

When I stood in front of the class, with the MICROPHONE (yes!! that's scary!), I nearly cried out 'God, help me to pray'. TO my surprise, words just came out from my mouth. Yes, I admit the first sentence is 'prepared' but the rest of it are not!.. Though it's a short prayer, but I'm trying to focus on prayer, while preventing myself from breaking down.

Well, I must say, it didn't turned out to be the 'expected' prayer as I hoping to say. But I really thank God for every words that came forth, and I pray this prayer will be reality into the hearts of everyone in class. Burn in us with the fire of Holy Spirit, teach us to love God and people fervently... (that's all I remember now)..

What an experience, indeed! I was totally 'helpless' in my physical, yet I feel the joy of doing. Confusing to understand?.. I guess so, cos I really don't know how to describe the 'joy+struggle'.

I really love God's Word even more now.. Not to be religious, but I simply love the Word of God! Heaven and earth will pass away but His Words last forever. You may call me 'freaking' but I really enjoy reading the Bible now more than before. They are not just recorded stories to me, but they are really mysteries and 'clues' how great God is!

"For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him" - Psa 103:11

"He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted" - Job 5:9