25 Jan 08 - In the Morning

7.10am - my heart aches again when i open my eyes..I keep telling myself it's ok, let God have His Will.. but it just aches..I know the situtation is better now,that we are still friends, rather than avoiding each other. Well, at least I've done my part to love wholeheartedly in the relationship and to end the relationship in peace and love. I guess it's normal that it aches,no matter how I try to talk myself out of it. Maybe Kim is right,I should force myself to get out.. ..

I still love him so much..and I told him that last night.. his last sms "i thank you for your love.i am truly blessed.sorry i couldn't love you back.you have grown,stronger in faith n in the lord.am happy for u.take care" I replied him to leave everything to God,let God be our Guide.

I know it's time to move on,I know I should not.. but I love him so much.. I'll keep praying for him,for us..All steps are guided by God,so I will learn to walk by faith and trust God. Our Father knows the desires of our hearts; if we abide in Him, He'll make a way for His way is higher than our way.. Just like the miraculous peace He blessed me last night...

Friend just sms me this when I'm about to end this blog..
Mark 11:23"I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him."

I don't want to be freaky or religious,but it just comforts me...