Today,i'm disgonised to suffer under Depression... my therapist suggest me to start a blog..so I can have my private space which depression demands, and yet connecting myself with people..
I started my story on B..what happened past weeks..4weeks..
I don't know what to do... my love is dead cos my B is dead.. How can he be so scary suddenly.. Where is his heart?? I miss B..the one who brought me so much joy and even assured me he's the one for me.. We went through so much.. how can he be dead..
I have to start on my anti-depression medication today.. my fear came true.. how many times i've tried to get myself out of depression..with love from B.. now he's gone.. I don't even think the current B will care anymore..even if I die now..
How can a person be so scary..so changed suddenly.. died in himself, in all his 'rational reasoning' on his withdrawal.. He wrote a list on why he love me - he love me because i always say what I feel,very true to self.. why is he saying i'm not true now? He knows I'm always true to him.
I keep hearing his voices,telling i don't listen..i keep changing my words...i'm not my true self with him.. NO! it's not true..I'm so true to him..even my darkest secret I confess to him and he accepted me.. where is my B.. why is he dead.. God where are you
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